Having been raised by a mother who was “gonna take a train”, I think Lillian Daniel (author of this morning’s StillSpeaking Devotional from the UCC) is in great company.  Our mother, Mary Jane (Peppard) Pazen was the daughter of a railroad man.  Whenever she was truly frustrated, she would say “I’m gonna take a train…” meaning she was gonna run away from home.  She never did that, but she certainly died too young, in my humble opinion. 

When my kids were little and had the abandonment fears, I always made certain they knew I would never leave them and that I wouldn’t die when they were young, if it were within my power to avoid it!  I saw Kate a few weeks ago and I hugged her with all the strength in me.  I wonder if my kids know how very precious they are to me.  Wowee! 

Everpresent Energy,

You created the universe, I’m relatively new here.  Yet you gave me memories of my childhood and adulthood.  You created relationships and we are tasked with making the best of these.  Amazing!

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Loving Lord,

I think today of my sisters. Thea, my biological sister, has another chemotherapy session this morning.  I pray you will hold her close as she undergoes this wretched nuisance in order to keep her body from developing cancer again.  Susan, my sister in Christ, continues to deal with family issues around her upcoming wedding. I pray you will send  you love and inspiration to her as she talks with her children and as Matt talks with his.

I think of Steve, my true love.  While he hasn’t received an answer from his interview last week, Lord, they said he would know several days ago.  If it is meant to be, he’s ready, Lord and I pray you will keep him healthy and strong.  If it is not what you want for Steve, I pray you would give him a final answer and send  your strength to him.  Perhaps this is the wakeup call for him to lose weight and stop smoking.  If so, give him LOTS of strength, patience, and a cheerful attitude whenever he can remember.  I know it would be hard for him, Lord, but I know with you beside him he could feel very good about having made the decision to improve his health. 

I think of my own self, Lord.  I thank you for the data analysis position.  I love the work.  I need, however, stamina.  It is hard for me to get up so early and work so long.  I pray you will continue to show me ways to even our financial situation.  I thank you for all you’ve done so far.

take-the-a-train-c Generous Giver,

You’ve handed us so much — for free, and sometimes we forget to  be grateful.  I appreciate my car, the circus, trains, my friends & family, and the memory of my mother.  Oh, and I appreciate dry skin cream.  Lord, I love you so much!

In Jesus’ name,


To God be the glory!

Melissa Pazen © 2013

Live Inspired:  pray continually; think boldly; dare greatly; love unconditionally; act deliberately, kindly, justly, mercifully and humbly; forgive easily; laugh frequently!