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Omnipotent One,

lung_cancer_sm_cellI talked yesterday about Carol. I had hoped to visit her tomorrow, but, as you know,she just called to tell me that she doesn’t feel well enough to have visitors.  She can only talk for a few minutes before she’s out of breath and her throat hurts.  I’m so sad this has happened to her.

But God, she called me. I had a chance to talk with her for a little while and I’m grateful, so grateful.

cancer-survivorI’ve been worried, as she continues to cancel via emails that I wouldn’t speak with her again. And now we have and I’ve heard the areas in which she’s healing and I’m reminded that I don’t need to worry, because you are trustworthy.

Thank you. And thank you again. And amen.


To God be all glory!

Love always,

Melissa Pazen, MSW


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LIVE INSPIRED: think boldly; love unconditionally; behave respectfully; act deliberately, kindly, justly, mercifully and humbly; forgive easily; live authentically; laugh frequently!

Again, a Stillspeaking Devotional touches me.  Mary Luti writes of 

in si·tu
ˌin ˈsīto͞o,ˈsē-/
adverb & adjective
  1. in its original place.
    “mosaics and frescoes have been left in situ”
  2. in position.
    “her guests were all in situ”

When I had breast cancer, in 2007, the tumor was “in situ”.  This means it hadn’t moved beyond the milk duct where it originally formed.  I give glory to God for having found it when it was SO small (6 mm – about 3/16 inch, photo is actual size).

6 mm - actual size


On Wednesday, I will have a repeat mammogram on the same (left) breast because it appears I have another calcification, often the precursor of cancer.  I know I’m not in control of these things, and I try not to worry.  

I keep giving this over to God and LET-NOT-YOUR-HEART-BE-TROUBLED-smtrusting.  Five minutes later, I’m giving it over again.  Sometimes I wish my humanity weren’t so human.  I know I’m not meant to be perfect, yet I long for serenity.  I long to be comforted and held secure in Jesus’ arms. I long to be able to rise above this.  As long as I keep my mind occupied with something else, something positive, I am safe.  My idle mind goes back to this over and over.  I guess the idle mind IS the devil’s playground.  I don’t believe in a personified devil, but I know there are forces of evil at work in the universe.  These are mine (and yours?) every time I slip from God’s embrace.  Will you pray with me, please?


Amazing Architect,

You created the universe and somehow you chose to create a wretch like me.  I praise you for finding me, for letting my blind eyes see you and the beauty of all your works.  I praise that you are creating still.  That you speak to us, not only from a document that is almost 2000 years old, but in the words of friends and your whispering voice.  I “hear” you in my quiet mind, with words you would have me think.  I worship you for this, the ability to turn my heart and my mind to the good, INSTEAD of dwelling on the bad… on my fears.  You are more than I could ever imagine; more powerful, more loving.  You are amazing!

Lord who Longs to make my joy full,

Joy-FullI pray you will be with me today.  I pray you will keep your loving arms around me and let me languish on your lap. I pray that in my time at church and my time with Kate & Will & Steve, you will keep my heart and mind on YOU. I pray you will banish my fears. I pray you will hold me close and remind me to lean on your perfect strength. I pray you will remind me that if you are for me, nothing greater can be against me. I pray that you will let nothing separate me from your love, even sickness – if it shall be so, even death whenever it comes (may it be years away!)

I pray for others who suffer with fear and illness: Craig, Thea, and many too numerous to mention – yet you know their names and my intent. I pray for all the littluns who arrived earlier than their parents planned: Emilie, Hayden & Ethan, Nick & Alex and many too numerous to mention. I pray for my congregation as we seek your will in becoming “Open and Affirming” of gays, lesbians, bisexuals and transgenders — and of all those for whom we see the differences and forget the similarities.

I pray that you will remind us we are your precious children, that each of us have a life that matters dearly to you.

Magnificent Maker,

You are the source of everything I sense – see, hear, smell, taste and feel.  You have given it all to me and my brothers & sisters in this world — and every human is my brother or my sister! I am filled with gratitude and I thank you.  And, Lord, thank you.  And by the way, Lord, thank you. May I ever be in awe of what you have done for me, and continue to do, and will do forever.

And I pray in Jesus’ name,


To God be the glory!

© Melissa Pazen, 2015

Live Inspired: pray continually; think boldly; dare greatly; love unconditionally; act deliberately, kindly, justly, mercifully and humbly; forgive easily; laugh frequently!

This musing stems from reading the National Alliance for the Mentally Ill’s article about the Oscars, and a connection many nominated films had to mental illness.

Silver Linings

“These movies taught us that love can endure against all odds and transform our minds in the most surprising ways. And they reminded us that we can overcome any obstacle if we dig deep enough and fight hard enough and find the courage to believe in ourselves.” ~ US First Lady, Michelle Obama

Enduring Energy,

You are the inspiration for screenplay writers, even when they don’t know it.  You are the origin of everything.  I find you everywhere and I worship you.  You are love.  You are loving energy.  Amazing!

Loving Lord,

I come to you today asking for your focus.  Help me to keep my mind on carrying out your purpose and creating good.  Remind me to affirm the good I encounter.  Help me to remember to state the positive and to make more of it.  Let me help, in my small way, to bring your kingdom to come on this earth.

I pray for Thea, more than 2/3 done with her chemotherapy:  help her to eat well, rest well and stay strong through these days.  Let her breathe in your healing, loving energy.  Let her build her strength emotionally as she practices your loving ways.


I pray for Denise, as she heals.  I pray for Tom as he goes through chemo.  I bring to you Joyce & Joe as they mourn the loss of Joe’s father.

What cancer cannot do

I pray for Sarah, struggling with a job she does not enjoy, but one that will help to cover her living expenses.  Draw her near you.  Show her a loving community in Boulder where she can be nurtured, and in turn, nurture others.

I pray for  Susan, building a new life with Matt.  You are the model for our relationships, Lord.  Show both Matt and Susan how to be loving of each other while taking care of themselves.  Let them build a strong family together.

I pray for Dianne and Bob, as they consider a brand new chapter in the location of their lives.  Open their eyes to see the area.  Inspire them to think of what’s best for themselves, their children and Dianne’s parents.  Show them your plan, Lord and remind them to be open to it.

I bring my congregation as we seek your will for us over the coming years.  Where would you have us work for you, Lord.  What would you have us do?  Please, Lord, open the eyes, hearts, and minds of our members as they see the resource we’ve written for the prayer vigil.  Thank you for inspiring Greg to put a copy in every worship guide this Sunday.  Whether members one week from tomorrow pray in our sanctuary or elsewhere, let them seek your purpose, Lord, and let them find you as they search for you with all their hearts.

Gracious Giver,

The snow gently falling outside is lovely and brings much needed moisture.  I’m warm and comfortable here.  Thank you for the abundant gifts and blessings you have bestowed upon me.  Bless them all, I pray, and use them and me for your will.

Through Jesus Christ,


To God be the glory!

Melissa Pazen © 2013

Live Inspired:  pray continually; think boldly; dare greatly; love unconditionally; act deliberately, kindly, justly, mercifully and humbly; forgive easily; laugh frequently!

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